Saturday, February 16, 2019

The Journey to Doing the Work

This d'var was delivered at Temple Ohabei Shalom, Brookline, MA, on Friday, February 15.

Erev tov – good evening, and thank you for having me here with you this Shabbat evening.

This week's parashaTetzaveh, begins with the following words


וְאַתָּ֞ה תְּצַוֶּ֣ה אֶת־בְּנֵ֣י יִשְׂרָאֵ֗ל׃ 
You shall instruct the Israelites..

But the word translated as “instruct” is from the same root as mitzvah, commandment. More accurately, the parasha begins, “You shall command the Israelites.”

You shall command [them] to bring you clear oil of beaten olives for lighting, for kindling lamps regularly.

What does it mean to be commanded? The answer is different for each of us. For me, I experience it as a feeling that I have to do something, even if it is difficult, that I really have no choice. I needed a place to work on environmental issues, in particular, and I needed to be able to do it in a Jewish context. I needed that because of how much I feel that my Judaism is inextricably linked to my deep need to act in response to what is happening to this amazing Earth upon which we are blessed to live, but no such organization existed, so, I co-founded the Jewish Climate Action Network, and serve as its president pro tem. On some level, I HAD to do this. For me, this is what it means to be commanded.

What does it mean to you? How does it feel for you? Have you experienced it? When? In what regard?

Given my role at JCAN, it will not surprise you that I am going to speak to you about climate change this evening. To begin, I'd like to describe stages of grief related to climate change. I assume you are familiar with Elizabeth Kubler-Ross's famous stages of grief outlined many decades ago. Psychologists have learned much more about how we process grief in the years since then, and we understand that grief isn't linear, it is complex, a veritable mosaic of emotions and connections and responses to others. But the idea remains useful for us as a reminder that grief is multi-faceted and healing is possible.

In regard to climate, as in impending death, the stages begin with denial with their own set of stages. There are many kinds of climate denial, which have been outlined by award-winning climate scientist Michael E. Mann and others..

Five Stages of Climate Denial:
  1. Deny the problem exists
  2. Deny that we're the cause
  3. Deny it's a problem
  4. Deny we can solve it
  5. Or say it's too late so why bother

Denial, especially Stage 1, can be quite comfortable. Beyond denial, there are also the stages of grief that we can experience, as originally outlined by Nobel Laureate Steve W. Running.

The second stage — anger — anger can be all encompassing. We may be angry at all the people who are talking about climate change. Anger at all the people who are saying we have to drastically change how we live on this planet if we want to keep on living it. Anger, at everything.

Then comes bargaining, when we begin to acknowledge that global temperatures are indeed rising, but claim it’s due to natural causes. Or they taking stance like ExxonMobil CEO Rex Tillerson’s — admitting climate change is a major, man-made problem, but claiming that the answer is to “adapt” to it instead of changing our behavior.

Once awakening about climate disruption begins for real, depression can become a too familiar state of being. The problem is so huge and so overwhelming and so frightening, that one might wish once more for being in denial. The awakening process continues every time we absorb more bad news about the climate.

Acceptance is the hardest stage, because the reality of what is happening and what is coming is so incredibly frightening. We are surpassing all of scientists’ worst-case scenarios and all those record droughts, floods, storms, and forest fires are beginning to be “the new normal.” Acceptance doesn't mean accepting it as OK, as acceptABLE, rather accepting that it is REAL.

Yet, acceptance is critical to appropriate action. But acceptance does not mean that all is lost. There is another stage beyond acceptance, what Daphne Wysham calls Doing The Work. As she writes, Doing the Work means “taking courage from each other as we look this monster in the eye and fight side-by-side in the battle of a lifetime. Systemic change — not just light-bulb change — is what’s required now. This must include everything from replacing the GDP as an outdated measure of progress to getting schools to teach climate science and arm the next generation with the facts.”

Doing the work is a powerful antidote to depression, to eco-despair. Someone I recently spoke with mentioned exactly this to me, that starting to do work she had felt she didn't have time for has helped her to feel more at peace. Doing the Work doesn't protect us from feeling the pain and the grief, but it can act as an antidote and get us going again.

And no matter where we are, as in grieving a loved one, we circle back to the other stages. It isn't linear.

Do any of these ring true for you? All of us live in denial much of the time, on some level, because it is such a huge problem and because we usually can't think about it 24/7. I often hover between 4 and 5, believing it is too large to be solved and it really is too late. And I certainly experience the grief on a regular basis. But I keep doing the work, because the HOW matters to me as much as the WHY, and the work does help give meaning to life, no matter what the future may bring.

I give you all of this as background, as we begin to look at the messages from this weeks Torah portion. Fittingly, our parasha begins with kindling lights, finding a source of energy to kindle the lamps of the Tabernacle in the desert. Harnessing the energy of olives to make a holy light.

That holiness is inherent in the whole process described here, of building the Tabernacle and making it functional. We read next that the priests are involved – people with a special task of serving G!d in a way that is different from others. Anointed, they lead the rituals and help to connect the rest of the people to G!d. G!d says to Moses:

You shall bring forward your brother Aaron, with his sons, from among the Israelites, to serve Me as priests: Aaron, Nadab and Abihu, Eleazar and Ithamar, the sons of Aaron.

For every sacred task, there are leaders. Parents are leaders in raising their families. Teachers are leaders in preparing our children to go out into the world. The head of your ritual committee is a leader in helping to make decisions about the ritual life of your community. Who are the people you know, in this community or beyond, who are leaders in regard to preserving our planet? What leadership role have you played? What leadership role might you play?

All of the work of the Tabernacle requires not just priests, but all kinds of skilled people.

וְאַתָּ֗ה תְּדַבֵּר֙ אֶל־כָּל־חַכְמֵי־לֵ֔ב אֲשֶׁ֥ר מִלֵּאתִ֖יו ר֣וּחַ חָכְמָ֑ה 
Next you shall instruct all who are skillful, whom I have endowed with the gift of skill

Those also called to service to G!d are those with the gift of skill – in this case to make Aaron's garments. 

In this effort to confront climate change, people with many kinds of skills and many passions are needed: Perhaps you have engineering skills or understand buildings and can work toward reducing energy consumption; perhaps you have people skills and are good at talking to others and helping to get them on board; perhaps you have leadership skills and can lead a contingent to the State House to advocate for just and equitable renewable energy laws; perhaps you love to cook, and can help transform your kitchen and kiddush into environmentally friendly places and times. There are so many opportunities for all of us with gifts of different kinds of wisdom and skill.

Part of the instruction regarding making the priestly garments is to
take two lazuli stones and engrave on them the names of the sons of Israel:  six of their names on the one stone, and the names of the remaining six on the other stone, in the order of their birth. On the two stones you shall make seal engravings—the work of a lapidary—of the names of the sons of Israel. Having bordered them with frames of gold

In other words, the priests do not do their holy work independently and separately. They carry with them into their holy ritual work all of the community. The names of the tribes are a reminder that they are serving not just G!d, but all of the people, too. Their role in relation to other people is as important as their role in relation to G!d.

So, too, each of us who works for our planet does not work alone. We work in community, supported by each other, challenged by each other, strengthened by each other. This is holy work, and in our tradition, we rarely do such work alone. Even on Yom Kippur, when we do that holiest of work of self-transformation, we gather together in community, supported by the knowledge that we are not alone in having sinned.

The parasha continues with many more details of what the workers are to do. For example:

You shall make a breastpiece of decision, worked into a design; make it in the style of the ephod: make it of gold, of blue, purple, and crimson yarns, and of fine twisted linen. It shall be square and doubled, a span in length and a span in width. 

Nothing is left to discretion. All is spelled out, clear, exact. No questions need be asked.

And yet...we read:

Inside the breastpiece of decision you shall place the Urim and Thummim, so that they are over Aaron’s heart when he comes before the LORD. Thus Aaron shall carry the instrument of decision for the Israelites over his heart before the LORD at all times.

There ARE decisions that have to be made. Not everything is spelled out, clear, and exact. Life is messy. Life is full of decisions, from morning to night, we make decisions, all of us. But Aaron carries with him a special instrument – lost now, no longer available to us – that made the process of decision making easier, that clearly brought G!d into the process.

So, too, are there many decisions for us. Many pathways forward are clearly spelled out by those with knowledge of them. But we must decide to take those pathways. We must decide which forks in the road to follow. Constantly we must decide. We no longer have the Urim and Thummim to help us decide, but we do have in our communities many people with much knowledge and experience. They can help us decide. They, with their holy knowledge, can help us decide.

And the text tells us that:
Aaron shall wear [the instrument of decision] while officiating, so that the sound of it is heard when he comes into the sanctuary before the LORD and when he goes out—that he may not die.

That he may not die!?

Coming so close to G!d, making a critical decision – these are dangerous moments. Their intensity is high, the stakes are high, and the risk is great.

We read this not just once, but twice.

The [instruments of decision] shall be worn by Aaron and his sons when they enter the Tent of Meeting or when they approach the altar to officiate in the sanctuary, so that they do not incur punishment and die. It shall be a law for all time for him and for his offspring to come.

The stakes of climate change are high. They are real. They are happening today. You know about them. You read about them – fires, floods, drought, extreme cold, extreme heat, rising seas. They touch people far away, and they touch people nearby. People die because of these. And we humans are responsible for the growing number of climate disasters. 

The long-term and more-than-human consequences of climate disruption are even greater. Species are going extinct daily at a frightening rate; insect populations and diversity are plummeting. We are in what has been called the Sixth Great Extinction, the previous ones having occurred long before our existence here on this earth. There are even concerns about the ability of the human species to survive this global threat. That we may not die, we must do the work.

What else in this parasha is pertinent to today and our current state of climate change?

We read:
This is what you shall do to them in consecrating them to serve Me as priests: Take a young bull of the herd and two rams without blemish; also unleavened bread, unleavened cakes with oil mixed in, and unleavened wafers spread with oil—make these of choice wheat flour. Place these in one basket and present them in the basket, along with the bull and the two rams.

Again and again, we are told in the Torah, and once again in this parasha: you shall make sacrifices to G!d. You shall give up the best of your herds and flocks, your grains, your oils, and you shall give them to G!d. Not just the old worn out clothes in the back of the closet, but the best of what you have.

And in regard to all that good food -- and maybe you are hungry, or maybe you are poor, we are taught: 

And if any of the flesh of ordination, or any of the bread, is left until morning, you shall put what is left to the fire; it shall not be eaten, for it is holy.

It is holy.
It is special.
It is set apart.
It is not for regular usage.
Do not eat it.

And this is not just for ancient times, but an offering, as the text tells us 
throughout the generations, at the entrance of the Tent of Meeting before the LORD. 

Throughout the generations – for always, now. You. Me. We are commanded to make sacrifices. We are commanded to give up the best of our “herds” and our “flocks” and our “wheat.” Yes, it is true that after the destruction of the second Temple and the rise of rabbinic Judaism, we turned away from sacrifice as a way to be in communication with G!d, and turned toward prayer and study. But the messages are still there. We read them many weeks of the year. Let them not fall on deaf ears. Let us not think that these rituals that feel so foreign and perhaps barbaric to us, that they do not have a message for us today.

We who are comfortable in life live in a world of plenty, of excess, of a sense of our right to all that we have. What would it mean tfor me to truly sacrifice to G!d? What would it mean for you? 

When we figure it out, and when we do all this – when we work with skill and dedication, when we offer up the best of what we have, when we sacrifice something we think we need, then
there I will meet with you, and there I will speak with you,
Then,
I will abide among the Israelites, and I will be their God. 
And, when we do all of this, we will know that we are not alone; we will remember our history, and that we were once slaves, but were redeemed from bondage:

They shall know that I the LORD am their God, who brought them out from the land of Egypt that I might abide among them, I the LORD their God. 

We are currently in bondage. We are slaves to fossil fuels, to having everything we wanted, to believing that comfort and possessions and travel lead us to the best possible life, to thinking that the world outside our doors is not holy. But our tradition teaches that redemption is possible. And in our parasha, we find that when we move toward freedom, when we do this work and make these sacrifices and

Place them in front of the curtain that is over the Ark of the Pact—in front of the cover that is over the Pact—[there G!d] will meet with you [us].

G!d will meet us. G1d will be with us, in a place and time of transformation. As Daphne Wysham concludes: “Together, we can get a glimpse, beyond despair, of a world of transformation and rebirth that is possible if we’re courageous enough to fight for it."

To help find the courage, and the community, for Doing the Work, join me at the Second Jewish Climate Change Conference: The Time Is Short, the Task is Great, at Temple Reyim in Newton, MA, Sunday, March 24, from 12:30 PM - 7:30 PM.

May each of us find the courage to hear and understand how we are commanded. May we accept that command, do the work we are skilled to do, and make the sacrifices we must. May we meet G!d in that space and time, and may we act in time and with enough energy to save our planet and its inhabitants.

Thank you. Shabbat shalom.


Rabbi Katy Allen is the founder and rabbi of Ma'yan Tikvah - A Wellspring of Hope, which holds services outdoors all year long, and the co-founder and President pro-tem of the Boston-based Jewish Climate Action Network. She is a board certified chaplain and serves as an Eco-Chaplain and the Facilitator of One Earth Collaborative, a program of Open Spirit, and is a former hospital and hospice chaplain. She received her ordination from the Academy for Jewish Religion in Yonkers, NY in 2005 and lives in Wayland, MA, with her spouse, Gabi Mezger, who leads the singing at Ma'yan Tikvah.


Monday, February 4, 2019

Blue כחול

by Katy Z. Allen

blue                                                                                                                                  
vast
expansive overhead
complex in origin
stretching beyond vision
                                                        distant
beyond complete comprehension
impossible to fully absorb 

a snatch of blue below
previously hidden
among marsh grasses
vivid
brief
intensely physical

connection builds
between blue above
and blue below

flow begins
grows
streams up
and down
glowing
pulsing
emanating

blue now encompassing 
all is visible
felt

feet firmly on solid earth
spirit extends
upward
outward
downward

blue
melts

body indistinguishable 
from spirit

multidimensional
               multifaceted flow
envelops
melts 
into unity

oneness


כחול
אדיר
נרחב מעל
מורכּב במקור
מתוח מעבר לראייה
                                         מרוחק
מעבר להבנה שלמה
בלתי אפשרי לקליטה

כחול חטוף מתחת
לפנים טמון
בינות עִשְׂבֵּי ביצה
בהיר
למראית עין
פיזי בעוצמה

קשר נוצר
בין כחול למעלה
וכחול למטה

שפע מתחיל
גדל
זורם למעלה
ולמטה
זוהר
פועם
שופע

כחול עכשיו מקיף
הכל נראה
מורגש

רגליים קבועות על קרקע מוצָקָה
רוח נפרשת
       כלפי מעלה
       כלפי חוץ
       כלפי מטה

כחול
נמס

גוף אינוֹ ניתָן להבחנה
מרוח

שפע רב מֵימדים
רב פנים
עוטף
נמס
לאחדות
ליחידות

Wednesday, January 2, 2019

A Prayer for Difficult Times / תפילה לתקופות קשות

Rabbi Katy Z. Allen

Master of the Universe,
I beseech you--
please G!d,
You, who clothes the naked,
who dresses the world
with trees and flowers,
with butterflies and bees--
please!
enrobe me now,
envelope me, I plead.
Cause love and compassion
to readily flow in and out of my heart,
and prevent anger, bitterness and hatred
from casting me down
into a mire of depression and despair
from whence 
I cannot escape.

Holy One,
spread over me the shelter of your peace,
guard me and protect me,
keep me safe
from the epidemic 
of hatred, fear and anger,
surrounding me.

G!d who is above all,
please,
prevent evil and violent thoughts
from entering my head and my heart.

Spirit of G!d,
Source of strength,
give me tears--
the tears that can free me 
from fear.

,Holy Presence
full of mercy,
who made free,
grant that the wellspring within me
may continue to endow me 
with strength and courage,
love and compassion,
determination,
and the knowledge that You are with me,
now and forever.

Bring me under Your sheltering wings;
open my heart ever wider,
and grant me --
independent of what happens around me --
the ability to laugh,
to smile,
and to enjoy the flowers and the moon.
Help me to remember happiness
and to continue playing with children;
help me pass through each day 
free from negative thoughts;
help me, please,
always to hear the sound of water,
the rain on the rooftop,
and the owl in the darkness of the night.

Gracious and compassionate G!d,
grant me--
please!
the self-confidence
to understand 
and to trust
that seeking to bring goodness into the world
is worthwhile;
help me to maintain faith, 
to continue moving forward,
and always to know
that you are with me 
and I am with You.

Blessed are you Yah,
Spirit of the Universe,
Who does great wonders.


רבונו של העולם,
אני מתחננת אליך--
אל נא,
מלביש ערומים,
המלביש את העולם
בעצים ובפרחים,
בפרפרים ובדבורים--
נא!
כַּסֵה אותי עכשיו,
עטוף אותי, אני מתחננת.
תן לאהבה ולרחמים 
לזרום בקלות לתוך לבי ומחוצה לו,
ומַנֵע כעס, מרירות, ושנאה
מלהשפיל אותי
לתוך הרפש של דכדוך וייאוש
שמשם 
אני לא יכולה לברוח.

קדוש אתה,
פרוס עלי סוכת שלומך,
שמור והגן בעדי 
והסר מעלי 
את המגפה 
של פחד, שנאה, וכעס, 
סביבי.

אל רם ונישא, 
בבקשה,
מְנַע מחשבות רעות ואלימות
לחדור לראשי ולבי.

רוח אלהים,
מקור אומץ,
תני לי דמעות--
הדמעות שמשחררות אותי 
מפחד.


שכינה,
מלאה ברחמים,
שעשתני בת-חורין,
תני למעין שבתוכי 
להמשיך להעניק לי
כח ואומץ,
אהבה ורחמים,
נחישות, 
והידע שאת איתי
עכשיו ולעולם.
הביאי אותי תחת כנפייך;
פתחי את לבי לרווחה לנצח,
והעניקי לי --
מבלי להתייחס למה שקורה סביבי --
את היכולת לצחוק
לחייך,
ולהנות מהפרחים והירח.
עזרי לי לזכור אושר
ולהמשיך לשחק עם ילדים;
עזרי לי לעבור כל יום 
חופשיה ממחשבות שליליות;
עזרי לי ,אנא, 
תמיד לשמוע את צליל המיים,
את הגשם על הגג,
ואת הינשוף בחשכת הלילה.

אל רחום וחנון,
הענק לי--
בבקשה!
את הביטחון העצמי 
להבין 
ולהאמין
שהחיפוש להבאת טוב לעולם
הוא כְדָאִי;
עזור לי להתחזק באמונה,
להמשיך להתקדם,
ותמיד לדעת
שאתה איתי
ואני איתך.

ברוך אתה יה,
רוח העולם,
המפליא לעשות.





Rabbi Katy Allen is the founder and rabbi of Ma'yan Tikvah - A Wellspring of Hope, which holds services outdoors all year long, and the co-founder and President pro-tem of the Boston-based Jewish Climate Action Network. She is a board certified chaplain and serves as an Eco-Chaplain and the Facilitator of One Earth Collaborative, a program of Open Spirit, and is a former hospital and hospice chaplain. She received her ordination from the Academy for Jewish Religion in Yonkers, NY in 2005 and lives in Wayland, MA, with her spouse, Gabi Mezger, who leads the singing at Ma'yan Tikvah.

Friday, December 7, 2018

A Prayer for Miracles

from Dr. Mirele Goldsmith and Liz Galst

This week the COP24 UN climate talks have begun in Poland; they will continue until December 14th. The point of the talks is to iron out the rules of the most recent climate agreement. Here’s an article from the New York Times which explains it all.  

Consider adding this prayer to your Hannukah candlelighting or Shabbat dinner this week. 

Baruch atah Adonai, elohaynu melech ha'olam, grantor of insight and maker of miracles at this season in times past. Teach the leaders of all the world's nations that human well-being and the well-being of the planet are intimately intertwined. Focus their attentions on the future, so that we may deliver the earth intact to our children.
Inspire us all to learn new skills, invent new processes, and exert our political  power to safeguard the earth you created with love. Open the gates of wisdom and dig deep the wells of action. Blessed are you, Adonai, who emboldens people to make great changes for good.                          
                                                                    --Liz Galst 
If you want to follow up your prayer with an action item, consider a Hanukkah gift to Our Children's Trust to support the lawsuit to secure the legal right to a safe, healthy climate.

Dr. Mirele B. Goldsmith is an environmental psychologist, educator, and activist. Mirele founded Jews Against Hydrofracking, directed the Jewish Greening Fellowship, and was a leader in the People’s Climate March and Jewish Climate Action Network-NYC. Mirele’s writing has been published by the Jewish Week, Forward, Shma, and Huffington Post. 


Liz Glast is the chair of the green team at Congregation Beit Simchat Torah in New York City and currently the editor of Barnard Magazine, the Barnard College alumnae magazine. 


  

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Happy Hanukkah

by Rabbi Katy Z. Allen
photos by Gabi Mezger and Rabbi Katy Z. Allen


For eight nights,
as we kindle lights
in the dark and the cold,
may the flickering candles
inspire us
to celebrate

the creation of this amazing world.

May the lights that break the darkness
remind us
of G!d's long-ago promise
never again to destroy this world.

May the lights that break the darkness
remind  us
to notice the symbol of that promise
all around us.















Each night,
for eight nights,
may the lights that break the darkness
remind us of what we know:
that it is up to us
to honor and to preserve
the wonder
the beauty
the intricacy
the delicacy
the power.

May the lights that break the darkness,
give us the strength to prevail,
the courage to keep on loving,
the wisdom to appreciate blessings,
the patience to pursue justice,
the openness to continue praying,
and the understanding
that each of us can, indeed,
make a difference,
and can make the world
just a little bit better
than it was before.

Chag urim sameach - Happy Hanukkah,

Rabbi Katy






Thursday, November 8, 2018

Chanukkah Chesed Challenge

Tonight begins the first of the month of Kislev, which means Chanukkah (there are many English spellings!) isn't far away - it begins on the 25th of Kislev and ends on the 2nd of the month of Tevet. 

During these days, from today until the end of Chanukkah, I invite you to be part of the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge. 

Chesed means "kindness," and the idea of the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge is to work consciously, every day, to do one act of chesed, or kindness, to someone you encounter throughout the day. This act should be something that does not necessarily come easily and automatically to you, something that you probably wouldn't have done in the past. It should be an action, small or large, that feels new and is outside your comfort zone, something that you make a conscious and deliberate choice to do.

What might the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge look like for you? The answer, of course, is personal. If you are outgoing, an extrovert, with a tendency to be chatty, smiley and upbeat, it will probably mean something very different to you than if you are quiet, introverted, or a loner, or if you struggle with panic attacks or depression. But a common thread will connect all our efforts with the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge: we are all committing to opening our hearts wider, to work harder to notice others and to reach out in situations in which we previously might not have done so, and in the process, we hope to make ourselves better people and the world a kinder place.

In the Shema, a prayer recited twice daily, we are are commanded to love G!d with all our heart, with all our soul, and with all might. But how can we fully love G!d if we don't love people? And how can our love of either G!d or people be complete if we don't love the more-than-human would that surrounding us? Considering these questions, feel free to take your personal chesed campaign beyond the human world, and be kind as well to the trees and the air and the water. 

It might take time to figure out what to do. You may not actually do anything different on the first or the second day, or even the fifth or the sixth. The important thing is to be thinking about it and figuring out what it will be for you. 

So, I invite you and your family members, including your children, to join the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge and to continue your daily kindness practice until the end of Chanukkah. Let's see what happens to us. 

You are also invited to share some of your experiences - what you did that you don't usually do, some unexpected response you got, or anything else about this practice and how it makes you feel. I've created a form to collect our responses.  This is anonymous, though if you'd like to add your name, you may. If many of us add our reflections from time to time, we will get something wonderful out of it, I am sure. I will share selections from the responses from time to time. To record your experiences of the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge, click here.

I look forward to hearing from you.

Chodesh tov - may you have a good month.

Rabbi Katy

If you would like to contact me about the Chanukkah Chesed Challenge, write to rabbi @ mayantikvah.org.

Rabbi Katy Allen is the founder and rabbi of Ma'yan Tikvah - A Wellspring of Hope, which holds services outdoors all year long, and the co-founder and President pro-tem of the Boston-based Jewish Climate Action Network. She is a board certified chaplain and serves as an Eco-Chaplain and the Facilitator of One Earth Collaborative, a program of Open Spirit, and is a former hospital and hospice chaplain. She received her ordination from the Academy for Jewish Religion in Yonkers, NY in 2005 and lives in Wayland, MA, with her spouse, Gabi Mezger, who leads the singing at Ma'yan Tikvah.

Monday, October 29, 2018

Thoughts in Response to Pittsburg

These are the words I shared with Ma'yan Tikvah on Saturday evening after the shootings at the Tree of Life Synagogue in Pittsburg. --KZA

Shalom,

How are you this evening?

I suspect you are reacting to today's news of the shooting at the Tree of Life Synagogue in Pittsburg in many of the same ways I am – with grief, anger, sadness, despair, and other mixed emotions. It is frightening when the violence in our country hits close to home. It is painful to see the brokenness of our world and our communities, and to hear and feel the hatred that seems to be becoming the norm. It is disturbing to see anti-semitism acted out so violently.

Our hearts go out to the families and friends, and to the entire community in Pittsburg. And our hearts break.

At a time like this, there are no simple answers. There are, in fact, no answers. There are just questions and more questions, and so much emotion.

How each of us deals with the pain, how we respond, is so personal. What helps each of us get through loss and tragedy is individual. When I worked in the hospital, I often heard the three F's mentioned – family, friends, and faith. It is a time for us to acknowledge what can help us, and to turn toward others and toward our own personal tried and true emotional and spiritual resources to find the strength and the courage to not just go on, but to go on with wholeness.

Many community vigils are being planned. One will be held here in Wayland Monday evening, and there will be one in Boston on Sunday. If this kind of event feels helpful to you, there may be one in your town as well.

Ma'yan Tikvah is a small community and geographically diverse, but I welcome hearing from you, and I invite you to connect to others you know, simply to say hello, I'm thinking about you, I care about you. That is my message to you this evening, as well. I am thinking about you, holding you in my heart, and caring about you.

I offer you a few words from Jewish tradition that I hope may be helpful, first words from Rabbe Nachman of Breslov, who is known to have struggled with despair. Rebbe Nachman taught:
Know! A person walks in life on a very narrow bridge. The  most important thing is not to be afraid.
This evening, and in the days to come, the most important thing is not to be afraid. Let us find the courage not to get stuck in bitterness or fear, anger or despair, but to continue to open our hearts with love, compassion, and wisdom as we search for the strength to deal with the brokenness in our communities and in our world.

In memory of all those who were murdered today, from the words of the memorial prayer, the El Malei Rachamim:
Oh G!d full of mercy, Who dwells on high, grant proper rest beneath the wings of the Shechina (Divine Presence) to those taken from us today...Please, Compassionate One, provide rest for their souls; never withdraw Your protective wings, and bind up their souls in the bonds of life. May the Holy One be their resting everlasting inheritance and peaceful resting place, and let us say: Amen.
At the end of Shabbat, we say Shavua tov – may you have a good week. May each of us find a way to help, in some small way, to make this week a good week.

Shavua tov,

Rabbi Katy

Rabbi Katy Allen is the founder and rabbi of Ma'yan Tikvah - A Wellspring of Hope, which holds services outdoors all year long, and the co-founder and President pro-tem of the Boston-based Jewish Climate Action Network. She is a board certified chaplain and serves as an Eco-Chaplain and the Facilitator of One Earth Collaborative, a program of Open Spirit, and is a former hospital and hospice chaplain. She received her ordination from the Academy for Jewish Religion in Yonkers, NY in 2005 and lives in Wayland, MA, with her spouse, Gabi Mezger, who leads the singing at Ma'yan Tikvah.