by Hody Nemes
I spend my days entombed in a skyscraper in downtown Manhattan. I am writing
these words in an eight-story apartment building.
As the world urbanizes, and as the urban sprawls further
afield, we spend our lives increasingly surrounded by the human-made –
brilliant engineering, beautiful cityscapes, wonderful in their own way, yet
sometimes painfully lacking. A wonderful other sort of beauty, the
emergent beauty of ecosystems -- of field, forest, coral reef -- is
increasingly harder to find.
Thanks to climate change and other massive societal
failings, we are in the midst of the sixth major extinction to afflict our
earth. In the lifetime of a child born today, as many as half of all animal and
plant species will go extinct thanks to climate change.
Numbed by urban life, overwhelmed by imminent destruction,
how are we to retain our wonder, and our gratitude for that which still grows
beside us today?
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Two thousand years ago, Rabbi Shimon Bar Yochai (Rashbi)
made an infamous declaration:
“Someone who is walking along studying
[Torah]...and interrupts to say ‘How beautiful is that tree,” or “that plowed
field!’, Scripture regards him as though he has forfeited his soul.” (Pirkei
Avot 3:7)
Many readers struggle to accept the plain reading of the
verse – that it is a sin to pause Torah study to praise G-d’s creations. It
can’t be!
Some reinterpret the meaning; they see Rashbi rejecting the
view that expressing wonder as an interruption from studying
Torah – perhaps praising a beautiful tree is itself Torah!
Yet the plain reading fits. Rashbi is most famous for
fleeing to a cave under threat of death from the Romans for teaching Torah. He
spends years in the cave (nourished – ironically – by a miraculous carob tree),
then vaporizes everything in sight when he briefly exits it. A Jew’s time
should be spent studying, and praising a tree or field is an unholy
distraction. This is an undeniable thread of our tradition.
I knew a man who inherited Rashbi’s devotion to Torah. The
rabbi of my childhood in Missouri,
Rabbi Abraham Magence z”l, was a graduate of Grodno Yeshiva, who studied with
one of the great Talmudic
scholars of the twentieth century, Rabbi Shimon Shkop z”l. So dedicated
was he to Torah study that Magence continued teaching even in the darkness of
Stalinist Russia during WWII, in defiance of a Soviet ban. His bravery landed him
in a torture chamber and nearly led to his murder by the KGB.
I knew the stories about Rabbi Magence, and I revered this
loving man who danced around the edges of my early life. Once was I given a
glimpse of his greatness up close, a greatness that set him apart from the
zealous sage of old – one cloudy Shabbat, as my brother and I accompanied him
down the sidewalk.
Without warning, he stopped walking. “Mein Gott!” he
cried, in his thick Polish accent. “Such a beautiful tree!” He remained
immobile, reverence on his face. A large, unremarkable bush stood beside us –
one I would have paid no mind. But as I looked more closely, I saw that it
shimmered with raindrops. Perhaps it did possess a latent beauty. Years of
Torah study, punctuated by suffering, had not dimmed his eyes nor lessened his
capacity for wonder.
Rabbi Magence was walking in the shoes of another teacher:
Moshe. Upon seeing a strange bush, he, too, stopped in his tracks. “I must turn
aside to look at this marvelous sight!” he said, with the determination of a
proto-scientist and the wonder of a prophet (Exodus 3:3).
Yom Kippur is approaching. The Day of Atonement is an indoor
holiday, a holiday of buildings – when we gather inside synagogues at the hour
that Kohen Gadol entered the Holy of Holies.
Yet it is precisely at this hour when we must go outside, to
explore the inner chambers of our heart in a different sort of way than we do
indoors, to find our own burning bush in the backyard.
On Yom Kippur afternoon – shortly before we read about
Jonah, and the kikayon plant that provided him blessed shade – I step outside
to seek my burning bush, my kikayon. I have a custom of lying down
beneath a particularly massive tree – the same one each year -- and reaching
out to G-d to review the year past.
As I do so, I marvel at the way the tree’s leaves rustle in
the wind, its branches sway, but its trunk remains straight and unbowed -- and
wished that I had the tree’s resilience during the gales of the coming year,
already brewing. Sitting in the tree’s gentle shade, I marvel, and I daven; I
reflect on my shortcomings, and I enjoy the quiet shade and sparkling of the
leaves.
I’m not the only one. Two thousand years ago, Rashbi, too,
rejoiced in the quiet shade of trees. Jeremy Benstein unearthed a passage in
the Zohar that has overturned my shallow understanding of Rashbi’s worldview:
Rabbi Shimon [and his colleagues] were sitting
under the trees in the valley of the Sea
of Ginnosar (Kinneret).
R. Shimon said, "How pleasant is the shade spread over us by
these trees! We must crown them with words of Torah"
(Zohar, 2:127a).
Rashbi had the Moses and the Magence in him too. If a man as
divorced from the world as he contained such wonder and such contradiction,
surely we do too.
This Yom Kippur, try lying down beneath the tree,
particularly if you are struggling to feel strong emotions during the
service…and recite the words of Moses, Rabbi Magence, and Rashbi.
Begin with wonder. Start with a tree.